yaaa... i haven't forgot about this thing, i just.. don't feel like trying to write about the past week and a half when i think of it. i missed almost all last week of school because i was sick with stupid allergies, and i couldn't walk straight.
i walked out of my house on monday night, last week.
for a lot of reasons, not just to walk away from a problem, which is mostlikely what it sure seemed like. i'm no quitter when it comes to something like that. more like, fed up.
i spent a few nights back at home cause dad didn't want me here at grandma's alone, but.. i didn't like being there. everyone there but my dad thinks the devil lives in my body, which is a crying shame, but i think we all will get over it sooner or later..
to be honest, i feel a little lost. i don't know what i wana do with my life, and whenever i wana do something, it's either a bad idea or not good for my well being or someone else's. i miss the way my life use to be about.. a year ago. everyone i loved was in my life, i had my best friend and the guy of my dreams.. and well. now everything has changed, and being lonely the way i am, really sucks.
ciera doesn't talk to me as much anymore because her boyfriend is her entire life. and i can't seem to do anything right.
i got an email today that just simply made me cry.
i slept for a few extra hours after school, just cause i have nothing else better to do..
nick wanted to hang out, but i told him i couldn't.. i don't need to be around him and i wish he didn't like me so much!
and, ugh.. gross. i found myself missing josh today. ya, josh walker? WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. i have a stupid class with him now, which won't help. he needs to stop flipping his gorgeous hair at me.. he KNOWS i loved that!
D:
i'm a wreck.
i think that's all i'm guna say..
byeee..
