Dear Dameon..

i know now that we were not meant to be. we took some chances and hurt each other, and still after all this time- we are still close. and i can honestly say, that it's okay if you won't love me forever. all i know is that, you changed me somehow and i still can't figure out what it is. but it was nice for those first two months again to have someone that would promise me that i would find someone better than what i've always settled for. you were the first guy that ever flat out said that love wasn't a joke to you, and that you don't just throw it around to make people happy. a little reality was nice with you. it was never a game and you never lied to me. i use to regret ever knowing you just because i was selfish. i wanted you to stop being a part of my life so i wouldn't have to worry about losing you in any way. i messed up this last time, but we both know it wouldn't have worked anyhow.. life gets in the way and well.. it STOOD in our way and wouldn't move. we needed someone who was going to physically be there for us when all of this happened. and i know it's still not my fault, but i'm sorry that i was never THERE for you. i don't know how i would have fixed anything, but it would have been nice knowing you were always going to be alright.. i won't ever ask you to love me, and i won't ask you to change, but all i want.. is for you to promise you won't ever forget about me..